Lately I’ve noticed a change with what I wear. I’m not sure if it’s because here in Canberra the weather is just getting colder, but my clothes are getting more layered and baggier.
Depending on what I’m wearing I can’t even look at myself in the mirror. I feel awful and self conscious and I hate it.
I’m not sure how to deal with it.
Actually that’s a lie. I know very much how to deal with it, but I don’t know why I’m stalling.
Lately the boyfriend and I have been living a very unhealthy lifestyle. We’re both very busy and because of that we’re making bad choices. Are exercise is next to nothing, we eat fast food or chocolate a lot more than we should and I can’t think of the last time I ate a piece of fruit.
I know all of this and yet I still can’t bring myself out of my funk to start making good choices and get my self confidence back on track.
Not that my self confidence is all related to my weight, but I think the bad food is effecting everything from my size to my moods.
I see so many inspirational bloggers and the words just aren’t coming through to me. It sucks. I’m at a very low point and I know I’m the only one that can pull me out of it. I just don’t know how.